you. AND. me

2009-01-10T18:19:00.002+08:00

AFTER A VERY LONG LONG TIME...
i decided to blog again:/
hahaha, so anyw, my hols is finally comin to an end!

so what did i do?
spent 18 days overseas.
first to switzerland, then to paris and then to shanghai.
switzerland was like one of my dream place to go, so i was kinda glad i went.
the mountains and sceneries were superb, but the flight there was SO SO SO bad.
after 5hrs to shanghai, transit, and another 12+ hrs flight to frankfurt.
woah, imagine the jet lag.
less than enough sleep on the flight. and then when we reach frankfurt, it was right back to MORNING AGAIN.
crazy.
the pork knuckle meal was horribly HUGE.
and the black forest cake with rum was yucky. hate alcohol so much ok.
the rest of the days were spent walkin arnd mountains and sitting in the bus cuz well, switzerland's huge. afew hrs journey to the next state.
oh, we went bucherer to collect SPOON. so cool ok.

at paris i went to disneyland!
my mum was crazy, she made me, bro and my cousin take the roller coaster ride THREE times so as to perfect a smile in front of the camera. mind you, the shot was taken when they just speed off. so it kinda catch us unexpected. how to smile-.- but in the end it was successful lar, surprisingly.
oh, the nicest ride was the falling tower one!
unexpected right, but yeah, everytime the thing falls, my butt's off the seat.
extremely scary:/

then 8 days at shanghai and jiangnan!
i tried the automatic mahjong there! liek the one that they help us shuffle and stack the tiles?
lol, it was so cool ok!
though it isnt as fun, but the pt is i 've tried before.
HAHAHA!:DDD
china was just buy eat shop.
never tried before maggi mee was superb cuz my cousins and i have to fight for it:/
and myojo lor mee taste good. thank god singapore sells it. haha.

so afterwards, it's back to floorball trng!
after like a mth out of exercise, imagine how i felt when i finally resume trng on wed.
tough man.
another trng ystd.
but guess what i was the only girl.
felt so paiseh, but i thought it was slacker.
haha! cuz confirm cannot outrun the guys mah, run so fast for what:/ heh.

sch's reopening):
i kinda dun look forward to it):

i finally bought my f480
yayye.
(though the colour sucks, but whatever)

im kinda irritated these few days.
have no idea when my first h3 lesson will start.
it's liek freakin ambiguous. and like i dun really know anybody there.
i just found out that wangjue's gonna be there too, and it kinda relieved me.
hate doing things alone ok):

there's open hse on tues. long long day):
j2's gonna be a busy year.

you caught me offguard.

2008-11-25T16:03:00.002+08:00

i think my life is gettin interesting!
there're highlights every single week!
yayye:DD

there's mahjong this thurs.
there's mahjong next fri.
and then overseas next fri!
YAYYE!:DDD

im really confused over which to choose.
there's interest in one, and more pros in the other.
i have to settle it by fri though.
GAH.
worse, im gonna have to go alone):
i'll see how it goes,hmmm.

im startin to play maple once again!
haha, dun ask me why, it's a long story!
hahaha!

and i realise ystd that jocelyn is overseas, and we are supposed to be playin mahjong on thurs?
hahaha, lack of one player ah!
oh man):
i only wan my usual kakis lar):):
hurry come back lar girllllllll, i havent been seein you!!!!!!!):
well, i hope you're enjoyin yourself at macau ok!
haha, rmb to buy my stuffs hor, if not i'll murder you the moment you get back.
HAH:D

ohoh, i have been having diarrohea since fri!
but after ystd doc visit (like finally), it stopped!
and im feelin so comfortable and happy(:
yayye!!!

floorball is my new love!
yayye(:
there's trng tmr, hoho(:

2008-11-07T16:58:00.002+08:00

PW HAS OFFICIALLY ENDED.
op was just ystd.
you could imagine the delight my grp, jocelyn's grp and marliana grp had.
we were so overjoyed that there isnt anymore WR, I&R and whatever nonsense.
not forgettin MR.LEE!
he still has guangwei's queen and 5diam and another 12 cards.
poker cards that made his deck incomplete.
that made us run arnd lt3 like some idiots, refusin to surrender to him.
oh, and zhiyun's 12 da fei nian calsberg cards!
HAHA!
time when bridge was the damn impt thing durin sch.
haha, and now, its mahjong!
i love my class so much ok(:

i thought i kinda screwed op.
thought i spoke too fast.
had like 6 assessors in my room ok. the rest had 2 ONLY.
wah, you could imagine how nervous i was, speakin without script and havin to undergo a session of Q and A.
haha, BUT NOW, its ALL over!
ole!

this sat, arsenal vs manu.
my bet, it's a sure win for manu(:
ronaldo will score, as usual(:
HEH.

i watched quantum of solace ystd!
it's a waste of money in my opinion.
i dun see the whole plot and story behind it, and i dun see the relevance the show has with the title. though the actor is good, there were several redundant characters and parts during the build up. haha, action isnt that bad. but, overall, not what i expected.
we went seoul garden for lunch.
and we played truth or dare, and the number game.
and i ended up havin to drink
1) tomyum, lemon slices, cherry, plum juice, mountain dew, choc ice cream mixed tgt
-it was boilin like crazy and the tomyum become very concentrated, was so bitter and salty ok
2) cold tomyum as base, mixed with lots of mountain dew and LOTS of chocolate ice cream
-this was so cold and sour that it's horrible ok.
thank god my stomach is strong(:
jocelyn the poor thing drank more than 10times of the first mix. HAH.

5DEC, my place ok!
mahjong, snooker all the way!
and class chalet, jotham!

2008-11-02T15:51:00.002+08:00

it's been damn long since i've last updated.
it's finally sch hols now, damn happy about it.
at least for now, there'll be no more long train rides. gah
not that i mind, sch is fun, especially my class.
haha.

my new hooby?
MAHJONG.
i think i've mahjonged 3 times with guangwei, jocelyn and xq
haha, and i'd still mj with them anytime again la.
next one is alr arranged on next tues.
guangwei's too addicted.
but we had fun.
this time round i must win alr lar!
tsktsk.

went for campfire ystd.
omg, i missed my sqdmates so much.
it's damn nice to finally catch up with them, and of course see them after the damn long periods apart.
haha.
im studyin at the west, definitely wont meet anybody i know for nut sake.
haha. but well, i still enjoy myself.

after ystd, it's like the past emotions comin back to me.
i suddenly miss cedar so much again.
though ac maybe fun, but the experience and joy that cedar gave, that np gave is just totally irreplaceable.
gah, i miss 4p, i miss aries.
stuffs that we can do then and not now.
like bull's eye? lol, suddenly seein them running arnd the canteen brings back much joy and memories.
though i feel extremely detached from the new cedar compound,
the friends i have, gah, i still missed them.

and you know what duckling, i think we need to meet up soon.
i missed all the morning talks):

have i mentioned, i hate gp too.
i wont be surprised if i dun get to uni because i flunk gp inA's.
gah, why must english still be tested?

if time could go back, whatever the time machine last night,
i'd choose to go back to 4yrs ago, remake my decisions then,
and enjoy np life one more.
4yrs in cedar np, is way too short.
my last campfire was just last night.
unbelievable.):

2008-09-08T21:34:00.001+08:00

i miss sch today cause i was sick):
haha, and i think i missed out alot.
like yeah):

it's been damn long since i last updated
and well, i think i should start muggin seriously.
but aiyah, lack of motivation:/
lol.

like i said, it's those small little things you do.

2008-09-01T21:57:00.002+08:00

it's been damn long since i last updated.
haha, it's my mum's birthday today!
haha, so well,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY(:
thanks for doing so much for me.
im not sure if birthdays should be happy,
because after all, that means you'ive gain another age,
and age isnt sth you want to gain anyw,
UNLIKE ME, cuz obviously, im still at my youth((:
haha!
i love you mummy!

and well, it's anger's birthday last thursday!
haha.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGER ANG(:
and i hope you like the present!(:
haha, you're older than me GRANDMOTHER.
hoho!
im really glad we're in the same sch, but well, sad that we aint in the same class.
haha, anyw, love you loads<33

and my birthday is only in 3mths and 4 day.
yucks.

it's tcher's day today.
but i went back to cedar last friday!
omg, i miss cedar and all the screaming.
it's been ages since i last scream in sch i think.
ac just dun.. you know encourage those stuffs:/
ah, i miss cedar):
well, but on the other hand, im really glad to see all the ppl that i've missed!
especially duckling!(: and...chia yun min(:
haha, but we haven take our pic yet lar):

i went shoppin today with my mum!
haha, bought shoes today(:
haha.

im really frustrated with the pile of time magazine lying underneath the coffee table.
YUCKS.

glad that its the hols now.
finally for long sleep and catchin up.
i need to mug.

2008-08-21T12:43:00.002+08:00

i had gp common test ystd.
i think im so gonna screwed it omg.
gp sucks lar, though the lessons are fun.
haha, im not suprised if i fail.
write until my hand pain lar!
i really hate writing essays lar):

had the gp package test today!
it was so @@$R&%@*.
had to chiong like siao, but thankfully, i've fin it(:

last few days was quite bad.
i think i was pms-in:/ haha
so i got pretty emo, and reflected like damn lots.
haha.

because that night, i broke down.

2008-08-06T22:44:00.002+08:00

had national day celebration TODAY.
like wow lar!
so damn early.
and its WAY WAY boring compared to cedar's ok!
i miss all those commuity singing, the parade, and the all sorts of nonsense that we alw do when we're high.
man, i realy miss those times):

i went to sch with eugene, anger and jenny today!(:
and lousy them had to play some prank on me luhh.
pangseh me halfway!
it was so damn awkward ok!):
hurr!):

im like doin my wr now.
eeyer disgusting):

perhaps, im just scared of the idea of failing.
or perhaps, those are just unachievable.
who, then, will bother to listen to me crap the same thing over and over again?

the second time in life i feel so stressed.
man, i hate):

2008-08-04T21:11:00.002+08:00

i really really hate pw):
i had chem test, which was, in my opinion, rather manageable.
other than those that i dunno how to do, should be can pass lar(:
haha.

suddenly feel so down today.
other than the, not nice feelin in my stomach,
today was a rather, not myself day.
sighh.
i know why, just i dunno how to say it, dunno who to say it.
never felt so lonely before):
listenin emo songs aint helpin, but then again, i only listen to those:/
for the first time, laughter and exhaustion dint help lar.
tv shows either.
haha):

perhaps its just my own prob,
for puttin to much pressure on myself.
i really really think sch's boring.

2008-07-27T14:55:00.003+08:00

life's gettin more and more fast-paced.
deadlines are all comin up.
blame me for slackin luh.
ohman):
and there're tests comin up.
physics comin tues. and the rest on subsequent wks.
rah):

had ne challenge ystd.
it was pretty... funny actually.
rj won cj by merely one mark; zero to negative one.
how's that huh?
haha, and the questions are seriously seriously, unanswerable lar.
omg, if my brain has the capacity to memorise that, i'd rather use it to memorise chem,phy,maths, stuffs like that.
haha.

i need to chiong my essay out by tmr lar.
boring, i hate gp so much):
and i dunno why i still insist on doing the terrorist question.
perhaps because it doesnt sound that chim.
ahwell.

blue moon's like stuck in my head
it's like playin over and over again.
haha, it's too nice lar!
too bad it's too hard to sing along!):

oh, and i had package test on thurs, chem spa on friday
haha, package was pretty ok.
chem spa was xyz lar!
omg, the worst spa i experienced.
xueqi was sittin behind me, so that means, well, spastic i guess?
when her gas that was supposed to be lighted with orange/yellow flame got out of control, she LAG TIME ok, and then OMG so loudly, and then call for mr chan for help.
WOW. my life was at stake.
haha!
and and, when i was going to light my bunsen burner, i ACCIDENTALLY burn my hair.
cuz, erm, i dunno, position of my head, lousy burner and starter.
:/ not funny pls.
and then i wanted to redo my experiment to double check, cuz i had ample time.
den the container was CIRCULAR in shape, and my short arms couldnt exactly wrapped around the container.
so i twist and turn hoping it would come nearer, but it went further and fell right to the floor.
oh, and the bottle was not covered.
so, imagine the mess i've created:/

there's chapel tmr(:

2008-07-21T23:05:00.002+08:00

im finally done with eom(:

i think my mum's crazy, she wants to see all my teachers for dunno what reason.
omg, so paiseh can:/
HAH. but well i expected it.
HAHA!

it's just those small lil things that make me happy:DD

what's more pressing now, is a diet plan.
i've grown much fatter and gain like 3kg.
JOKER man.

2008-07-20T16:34:00.004+08:00

omg, look at lisheng-.- he look like a rat there luh!

xueqi looks drunk:/

look at xueqi:DDD

GUTTER BALL!

:DDDD

zilian(:

zilian!

so i decided to help them:D

pink balls, zeren's idea pls:/

1SB5!!!(:

the rest, msn or facebook!(:

2008-07-20T16:17:00.004+08:00

4P!:DDDD

omg, small eyes >.<

L.O.V.E(:

i'll miss you charmian):

msn me to get the rest of the pics k?
i'll put it on facebook too(:

2008-07-20T16:07:00.002+08:00

time passed so fast that 2 ppl im my life has left):
one to australia, and the other to india.
AH):

had a 4P class gathering last thurs!
it was supposed to be a farewell dinner for charmian, at fish and co.
if it werent because there's sch the next day,
we would be there talkin till damn late.
omg, i missed cedar so much.
the blue uniform, and the yellow/grey tie.
i miss everything, everybody there.
ac just isnt the same.
so we just stay there talkin, camwhoring, laughin, gossiping, and just mainly purely, having fun and laughters like how it was last yr and the yr before.
we seriously need to meet up again, though it wouldnt be the same again since charmian isnt gonna be arnd):
come back often to visit us ok!):
you'll be seriously missed):
im sorry i couldnt be there to send you off though):

it was 1SB5 gatehrin last fri!
to meet up before atul leave for india on sat.
haha.
we went bowlin! and seriously im really lousy:/
gutter ball all the way other than the many tycos:/
haha, zhiyun was the worse lar! haha!
anyw, though i dun really know you for very long, im still glad i met you, all the best ok!(:
come back often too(:

i went to watch the dark knight ystd with my family.
i had 2 free tickets, so yeah(:
haha, it was damn good omg.
though i was pretty front, and the movie was damn long, that my butt hurts due to sittin for too long, the plot and the suspense is damn nice luh.
haha, though it was pretty chim, and i think the joker's damn cute.
really, and i dun think his smudged ink is disgusting:/
haha!

i've finally fin my package!
i shall read again by next thurs so i'll be prepared for thurs test(:
haha(:
im gonna start muggin alr lar.
everybody arnd me's like muggin for no stupid reason, and i feel stressed because of it:/

2008-07-15T22:15:00.003+08:00

IM DONE WITH EOM, OMG.
i can finally heave a big sigh of relief.
pw is totally getting on my nerves:/

today was quite a hectic day, with 4hrs of intensive lecture.
tuesday alw sucks):

and some group of idiots have to irritate me today.
like totally, damn rude can, but they think they damn cool.
ee, no life.

sch's alw sp boring, i dun like.
there's leadership module tmr):

2008-07-14T21:37:00.001+08:00

I OFFICIALLY DECLARE IM OVER RONALDO ALREADY:DDDDDD

2008-07-14T19:51:00.003+08:00

had council invest today.
omg, i swear, it was boring to the max.
i'd rather have chapel, serious.
but anyw, i spend half the time disturbin chua zhiyun(:
haha.

maths was yet teh nicest again.
NOT BECAUSE I LEARN ANYTHING,
but because teo xueqi was such a distraction that we kept laughin non stop, and disturb jocelyn.
HAHA, yo yo look at my intellectual look.
and she just exploded in laughter.
HAHA.
and she's really sweet.
gave this sweet and she written stuff on it!
haha, i promise i wont lost it ok(:
and she and jocelyn satyed back with me after sch to wait for tcher.
haha. first time they so nice can!

i really need to get started on my eom,
im horrible off schedule.
man):
there's so much work to do, im beginnin to feel stressful):

oh, and im damn sad that i fail gp.
dammit.

ETHANOL EMPIRE!

2008-07-08T19:13:00.003+08:00

its been long since i last updated
haha, been pretty lazy:/
heh.

firstly, im pretty glad spain won the euro2008 cup.
but i would be HAPPIER if portugal won.
mainly, i just dint wan germany to win luh.
haha.

secondly, i watched hancock and wanted alr!
haha, wanted's prety nice, except that its qutie vulgar.
haha, the atio and all is damn good luhh!
but personally, i think hancock's not that nice, except the endin's pretty touchin, and i teared ok!
OMG

i went nlb ystd to do pw!
EOM!
i finally got the material i wanted, includin cross reference!
i swear the library's damn useful ok!
i like i like(:
then i went to catch a movie.
sth spas happen to me luh!
i wan holdin on to my nachos in my hands,
den the some particular trailer scared me and i LITERALLY JUMPED.
and my nachos just flew out of the box.
omg-.-
so paiseh):

i got back my term results!
haha, except for gp and econs though:/
although some would say i did pretty ok.
but i would say im pretty disappointed.
cuz there were so many incidents that i were careless.
if i dint know how to do, den it's fine.
but if im careless, den its another story.
sighh, but its ok, im not gonna complain(:
nxt target? PROMOS(:
(STUDY PLAN!!!)

this really interestin conv happened, erm, last tues.
sharon: i need to go your hse do survey.
me: erm, ok, as in door to door ah?
sharon: yeah, survey monkey. [i really swear i heard this, and i thought it was sarcastic:/]
me: there's no monkeys around my hse.
then the sudden realisation hit me.
she meant SURVEYMONKEY, as in the website.
OMG.
and i spend the day really happy(:
cuz sharon came my hse and slacked thru the day.
<33
for the past yr, im so used to goin tuition with her every tues.
to slack with the tuition gang!
haha!
and we have yet to go out):

its amazing how an sms can just get me high.
haha, and i just cant stop grinnin to myself even though i know its nth more than an sms to you.
haha, i think there's sth wrong with.
today's lovely(:

i haven touch econs.
but i reckon pictures are more impt.
ohmaan):

2008-06-11T17:23:00.005+08:00

AINT HE SO CUTE!
HAHAH:DDDDDD
MY HEARTTHROB!<333>

Cristiano Ronaldo voted Mr. Handsome at Euro 2008
Jun 10, 12:21 pm EDT

VIENNA (AFP) - Portuguese star Cristiano Ronaldo is the hottest player at this year's European football championship and not just because of his dribbling skills, according to a Europe-wide women's survey.
The Manchester United striker was voted most beautiful player of the tournament, in a poll of 12,000 women carried out by electronics company LG.
French forward Thierry Henry came in second, ahead of injured Italian skipper Fabio Cannavaro and Freddie Ljungberg of Sweden who drew for third place.
Talent and his Latin good looks won Ronaldo the title, according to the survey.
His biggest fans were apparently Italian, German and Swedish women.

and not forgeting, im his fan too(:
HAHAH!
dun believe, i give you the link!
http://sports.yahoo.com/sow/news?slug=afp-fbleuro2008porronaldo&prov=afp&type=lgns

2008-06-11T11:09:00.002+08:00

ok, this is gonna be a long post,
dedicated to my dear brother!

i couldnt sleep last night.
even if i did wake up at 11 the same morning,
i shouldnt be that awake.
and i had a bad intuition, like a bad feelin.
i dunno, had a bad dream:/

dreamt that my bro got kidnapped,
i was devastated:/
my parents and i couldnt find him.
so we ran arnd many neighbourhoods to ask ppl.
when we found him, i almost got shot by one of this ahma in the hse.
for some reason i was in police attire...(?)
i dreamt i did a flyin kick at the ahma (but somehow she dint fall)
the ahma like roly poly like that, cannot fall one!
she fired a shot.
den i woke up.
what a dream, dramatic.
serious.

i hope you're safe and sound brother.
should be lar, he's in camp.
i want you backkkkk. *whines
i dun like the feelin that you're away from me):

thinkin back,
half the time im alw protectin him.
he's like so soft spoken, dun speak up.
the moment ppl bully him, he'll cry alr.
haha, omg, i miss him loads.
even if we do quarrel, it'll alw be over in less than half a hr.
den we'll be back playin tgt.
even if he makes me angry, i shout at him,
i know, deep down, i dun mean it.
he's alw the one capable of makin me worry.
HAHAHA.
he doesnt read this, but anyw,
I LOVE YOU!<33
i realise, i never say this to him before.
haha!

but what do you expect,
say such things to him,
his reply will be, ' wu liao, nth to do is it:/'
haha, act cool lar he:D

but even so, our relationship is like the strongest in the family.
he doesnt really get along with mum (perhaps their character clash lar, two stubborn pigs.HAHA)
dad, well, his kinda flexible, doesnt really argue, so he's fine with my dad.
but ours.. its different.
he talks to me like really close stuffs, stuffs he usually doesnt tell my parents.
and i feel, this super close attachment to him.

frankly, he's like an mcb also.
like which idiot will say, 'whats the pt of a honeymoon huh, super waste my money'
HAHA.
i seriously pity his girlfriend.
and his honeymoon, will be, just goin to sentosa.
HAHA, omg. last time we talked about this, my family had a good laugh.
haha.
and i know he thinks short guys are really cool cute, and he aspire to be like them.
you know, like michael owen and emre?
they run fast and stuffs like that.
HAHA, dun ok, too short, later no girlfriend.
HAHA.

and i know mum, you read this.
i bet you'll be close to tears readin this.
apart the part which i say two stubborn pigs.
HAHAH.

i dunno why, everytime he's in the hse, i'll be thinkin he's some nuisance.
but everytime he's not in, i alw feel empty and uneasy.
aiyah, i know he feels the same way too.
mum and dad alw tell me.
and they alw like to suan the two of us.
when both of us arnd, we argue.
one not in, we are as quiet, not our normal selves.
weird huh?

this is gettin so naggy,omg.
i better stop.
he's comin back tmr(:
YAYYE(:

2008-06-11T10:57:00.003+08:00

i talked to xueyuan ystd night!
omg, she's like so sweet ok(:
and she say she'll treat me to haagen diaz ice cream if i do well for terms(:
HAH, i'll hold you to that ok!
and she say she'll just wan me to go sch with her everyday if she do well.
OMG.
i couldnt stop grinnin to myself.
I MISS HER OK.
im used to seeing her first thing in the mornin
(we go sch tgt you see)
hurry come back luhh!(:

yayye, 2i's havin a class gatherin at my hse tmr(:
HEHHEH.
i cant wait(:
it's been so long since i last catch up with ppl like mich, char and lyn!
not to forget huiyi(:
and so many others!!
omg(:
sec2 was the best, serious(:
if time could turn...

so many regrets:/

2008-06-10T16:00:00.003+08:00

today must be the most productive day of my holidays pls.
i manage to read my chem study guide(:
from moles to chem bonding.
so im left with.. chem energetics(:
HEHHEH(:
cps will be so proud. HAH.

i woke up at 11 today though.
i really caught up with my sleep(:
haha, not that i woke up, laze arnd then go back to sleep.
all at one shot.
HAHA!

i love holidays, only because i can catch numb3rs on axn.
hahaha(:
that charlie guy is like some maths genius.
so many theories luhh.
loveeeeely.

i realise i haven touch physics yet.
BUT, its ok.
i've found my motivation alr((:

next up:
1.chem practice (probably my tys and some random bk)
2.maths! im so dying from it alr):
3.read up physics.
4.physics tutorial
5.past yr papers
6.probably i'll include econs:/

holland 3-0 italy
romania 0-0 france

haha, romania drew with france lar!
go go romania!
other than portugal, romania is the next country i support.
just because it's the poor soul in the so called grp of death:/
my bro will be so glad.
he's supportin romania because england dint get in.
HAH.

2008-06-09T23:25:00.002+08:00

i was just reflectin,
if ronaldo really leaves manchester united,
that would be like really big blow for me.
cuz i really really cannot imagine myself supportin another club.
and i was thinkin, if ronaldo really chooses real madrid,
i think i would cry.
cuz real madrid is like one of the last club that i'll support.
i mean, if he really chooses to leave, i would rather he go barcelona.
the best thing is, he doesnt leave:D
but aiyah, i bet he will one day.
can tell:/

oh, before i forgot,
samantha yeo manage to drag her lazy ass to play badminton.
HAH.
it's been long since i last work out.
so my right arm is kinda achin):

aw, come back):

2008-06-09T17:35:00.003+08:00

PORTUGAL 2-0 TURKEY

hooray(:

and i just realised cristiano ronaldo's international number is also 7.

and i thought it used to be 17!

HAHA(:

its ok(:

i know someone will say he look like christmas tree:/

somemore he is wearin GREEN boots luhh!

where did his orange/red boots go to?):

but its ok, he still look lovely(:

i went aj in the mornin for some seminar/talks/ whatever.

it was, well, kinda boring

with only talks.

the only nice thing, perhaps, is REFRESHMENTS(:

chicken wings and samosa(:

HEHHEH.

then we pon and i went back to my uncle hse.

i did maths tutorial 11(:

now my head hurts like mad):

differentiation should rot and die.

HAH.

i wonder where my amaths go to:/

2008-06-07T11:14:00.002+08:00

relatives are comin over to my hse later(:
yayye(:
it'll be damn fun today luhh((:
not to forget, MAHJONG(:
and, there'll be bbq(:
omg, i cant wait(:

i went to serangoon to look for duckling ystd night.
to take back sth for my dear bro to use.
she lar, first say amk hub, den after serangoon.
and i kinda lost my way at serangoon bus interchange there:/
thankfully, this nice soul came to help(:
HEH.
paiseh, for makin you walk here and there luh!):
somemore she's tired from shoppin,
but anyw, thanks yeah(:

im seriously unfit omg,
walk alil bit only, im tired out alr!
TSK!

im still shocked, serious.
but its ok,
you'll still be my good fren<33

2008-06-06T10:47:00.002+08:00

i went sci centre ystd again to man some INSECTS booth.
i was pretty freaked out, yeah.
in case you dint know, samantha yeo's scared of INSECTS.
and it doesnt help knowin that the cockroaches are, well, ALIVE?
and the in-charge keeps takin it out to show the public.
HUGE MADAGASCAR HISSING COCKROACHES.
yeah, i just totally ahhh my way, and kinda ran away.
totally avoid the table with the LIVE specimens.
i was left to do explanation with stephanie, about
1) atlas moths (the largest moth)
2) cicada exoskeleton (apparently, they can be eaten, used in chinese medicine)
3) dragonflies (the nymphs, which lives in water for 2-5yrs and the adult only lives for 1-2 wks..)
4) silkworm lifecycle ( and the cocoon, where we take our silk? we boil it, to kill it:/)
5) bees and honey? steph was doin this actually.
it was pretty ok, but my throat was dyin.
sat there and repeated over and over again: ' this is the dragonfly nymph... BLAH BLAH'
but the kids were really cute luh, were totally amused with the specimens.
like, the cockroaches in our houses, are actually, FOREIGNERS? called, american cockroaches?
i dint know that luhh.
they kinda like, took over our local species.
survival of the fittest:/
and there was this really,really, interestin question:
'do ants have noses?'
we were like, hmm, never once thought about it:/

poor xueqi was left alone.
hahah.
not my fault, i dint reply to the mail luh!:/

OH, and there was this room where the preserved specimens were kept,
like real size tigers, monkeys, crocodiles,squirrels?
OH, and human brains:/
i was pretty freaked out, cant really stand such stuffs.
the i/c was explainin that they cut animal, took out their organs, and stuff them with i-dunno-what.
i keep insistin he was lying:/
an eyeopener luhh(:

there was this video about a rodent talkin about mosquitoes.
i swear it was really cute.
it kept repeatin itself while we were mannin the booth,
and there was this line where i thought it was really cute and i got shuyi to record for me(:
'you are not alone, you are being watched'
and i just kept gigglin to myself whenever its being played.
HA.HA.

i went to my aunty hse afterwards!
totally, reminded me of my childhood luh.
i was, silently, grinnin(:
HEHHEH.
and we collected DUMPLINGS(:
got nice food liao(:

my bro's not in the hse now,
feels kinda empty luh.
nobody to argue with.
suddenly, im all so reflective...

i miss sch actually,
especially chapel:/

today's muggin day:/

2008-06-04T16:12:00.008+08:00

hello(:
ystd my com lag like nobody's business, which totally got on my nerves.
almost blew my top.
haha.

went sci centre ystd to cip.
had to do some activities which involves the public, mainly the kids.
balancin butterfly and tharmo-dunno-what.
the second activity was awesome, ask the kids colour some template.
we staple on a straw, and start the twist the straw, and some optical illusion thing will happen.
HAHA. it was pretty cool ok.
but the long hours made my butt ache.
the chair was, sadly, damn hard:/
haha.
7bucks of macs voucher!
at this rate, i think i'll grow fat:/
HAH.
after that, went for this water exhibit,
WHICH IS VERY VERY COOL OK!
took alot of pics!

zhiyun and me were super awed with this entrance luh.

looks fake huh? like we were pasted there:/

i think the polar bears damn cute(:

went sch to do pw today.
thank god we came up with the survey questions alr!
HAHA((:
but still, there's so many parts undone):
so ppl, age 14-18 ONLY, pls do the survey for me ok!!
HEHHEH, thanks!!
http://www.surveymonkey.com/s.aspx?sm=8NoZ1P6a95ZrdJUk8b_2bBag_3d_3d

sci centre again tmr, but this time round, i have xueqi for company(:
HAHA(:
i bet she will turn ego if she read this luh.
HAHA.
/
without the courage to say so,
i wish time could time turn.
there's so many decisions i'll remake.
/

this pic damn nice, makes me think alot.
even though i was tired last night,
i couldnt sleep until 1 despite going to bed at 12.
toss and turn, toss and turn.
and then, my mind wandered.

2008-06-02T19:21:00.002+08:00

i did maths tutorial 7,8,9! HAHA, omg, i feel so accomplished pls.
and now, my head hurts from all the graph drawin.
OMG):

i went to grandma hse ystd!
hmm, im beginnin to fall in love with the four colour card game lar!
i call it the old ahma card game!
the small, black and long cards which ahma gather at the void deck to play.
though i think its tougher than mahjong,
but its still an option if i dun get to play mah(:
haha, i'll learn.
im a pro pls!(:
HAH.

going sci centre tmr to do cip.
haha.
i'll be the only person reportin at 11):
sian lar.

i feel fat.
been long since i last exercise.
haha.

2008-05-31T22:54:00.002+08:00

im back at my uncle's hse!
shoppin at ps, was basically unfruitful?
yeah.
it was damn crowded luh.
but its ok, mummy bought 8 boxes of durians(:
so nice ok(:
i keep burping, haha!
durians are love(:

2008-05-31T10:34:00.002+08:00

ystd was quite a xyz day lar.
supposed to have chem remedial in the aft ystd.
but erm, you know, my class never fail to pon chem:/
so it was left with me and eugene who dun mind goin.
haha, so in the end it was cancelled AFTER i reach buona vista.
omg lar!
i was damn damn pissed off.
cuz i was tellin mummy that all my frens aint goin, if i go i'll be damn loner lar!
so i threw a tantrum.
in the end it was cancelled.
mummy's fault, if it aint for her, i wouldnt have wasted a trip.
cps also, if its not because i scared he reflect on emails, i cant be bothered.

so after that, i went to lavendar to find mummy.
go with her to settle some domestic stuffs.
she had to endure through my super naggy complaints throughout the waitin time.
like yeah, she 'force' me go mah!
the whole bus stop turn to stare at me:/
so embarrassin can.
but i was too fired up to care. hahaha!
to people's park centre (oh the egg tart is damn damn nice:D) to settle some lawyer stuffs.
den to indonesian embassy collect some passport.
my mum is damn noob at bingo!.
must fin 6 rows right, she fin 1 tell me alr:/
and she is damn slow luh-.-
den after we settle that, we went to vivo to shop!
i badly need shorts, slippers, and new clothes.
HAHA, i love shoppin with mummy(:
haha(:
and she damn spas lar can.
stand in the middle of the centre and started yawnin-.-
piang!
so i was in my sch uni the entire day.
mummy's fault.
HAH.

going ps later to shop somemore!
haha(:

2008-05-29T16:55:00.003+08:00

omg, this skin is so red.

but somehow, i think its really really cute.

HAHA(:

i went for chem today(:

as usual, it was BINGO!

haha.

but today, im really really noob ok.

alw stuck at BIN.

omg):

im so sleepy these few days.

sighh.

must be cause of late nights.

RAH.

went to lavendar to meet my mum,

but some stuffs cropped up,

so i have to go home like almost immediately after lunch.

haha.

ym came back(:

one more day.

im gettin irritated.

2008-05-28T19:37:00.002+08:00

i went for maths olympiad today(:
haha.
it was.... ^&@&*($*()&^8
yupps, that kinda summed up everything(:
ten bucks gone to waste lar hurr.
both me and anger look really stumped at it.
and we couldnt stop laughin.
hmm, it was more of fillin the blanks with numbers that look nice, logical, and perhaps our lucky numbers.
HAHAH.
and and, erm, there was this pretty cute guy.
HAH.
and and, stupid anger has to make me do this super unglam, nonsensical thing,
just so that i can help her find the name of this particular sch.
omg lar, so throw face can-.-

after that, me jenny, anger and zeren went to look for foood(:
and i swear the food at nus is like MUCH MUCH cheaper than our sch canteen ok!
hmm, the sch's pretty pretty huge,
we dint know where to go,
so we ended up goin to some food court there.
anger wanted bk, but we couldnt find.
haha!

xueqi's lying at home soothing her stomach.
HAHA, clear intestines huh.
hope you're feelin better aye(:

there's chem tmr.
xyz, he's gonna die.
bleah.

2008-05-27T22:22:00.002+08:00

CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT.
i need to scream and whine and complain now.
OMG OMG OMG
IDIOT IDIOT IDIOT.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
tell me, since when was i ever talkative in his lessons lar!
TELL ME TELL ME TELL ME.
since when did i play with deionize water?!
TELL ME TELL ME TELL ME.
the only thing i did was to sit aside and laugh, then after that dunno who kajiao me and then i help two bottles of it.
BUT I DINT PLAY WITH IT.
and then he came up to me and sort of ask me to put it back in that stern manner of his.
his form of scolding.
LIKE WTF.
xq and joc were playin for bloody long alr ok.
I DINT.
and worse is, HE DINT EVEN SCOLD THEM OK.
the moment i held the bottle.
HE ASKED ME TO PUT MINE BACK WHEN I DINT EVEN PLAY WITH IT.
is laughin wrong?!
OMG I HATE HIM.
AND AND, his lessons are so boring i cant even keep myself awake at times,
HOW DO I TALK IN HIS CLASS YOU TELL ME?!
i stone, i daydream, fine sometimes i talk.
BUT EVERYBODY IN THE CLASS TALKS.
does that deem as TALKATIVE?!
WTF WTF WTF.

and mummy, pls stop replyin him will you?!
i cant stand it lar, omg.
no parents in the class does that.
WAH LAO.
as if that isnt enough, he starts sproutin all this idiotic nonsense.

WTF. LOSERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
BULLSHIT. IDIOT.

SERIOUSLY, i need to find someone to shout and scream.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
that bloody loserr.
that bloody idiot.
CRAZY MAN.

im still not over with it yet.
i still need to rant.
but i dunno what else to say.
im gonna start swearin again.
omg.

2008-05-27T19:43:00.000+08:00

OH OH!
i saw some advertisement on tv, about some inter sch comp.
HAHAHA.
i saw syikin and lauren lar.
and, erm, i thought i saw lauren cryin yes?
HAHA!
omg.

2008-05-27T19:35:00.002+08:00

haha, i had to wake up early for gp remedial today.
haha, i thought xq gonna be late lar.
thankfully, i dint wake up late(:

got back our compre and it was like omg.
last min do aq can also pass.
HAHA, all praise me man((:
though err, my intro and conclusion sucks.
BUT STILL.
mdm insists i have split personality.
cuz my handwriting in summary and aq differs ALOT.
like seriously.
the whole class was laughin.
SHRUGGS.
it has alw been like that since primary? or secondary.
ah, who cares(:

den we went sumo hse to eat lunch!
haha, and there was the debate goin on to decide if we should pon.
like seriously, i never learn anything from the tutorials anyw.
he doesnt even bother if we are there or not.
he ignores my clique like everytime.
he doesnt care.
the only time he does, is when he's in a bad mood and we talked.
we talked everytime. but only then.
we'll become OUT-STANDIN girls.
-.-'''
so it was BINGO again!
i swear jocelyn's damn noob ok!
haha, she never seem to win.
alw stuck at BIN.
i wonder where the GO! go to.
HAHA!

then it was home(:

there's maths olympiad tmr.
haha. im scared.
very long never do alr.
and, open section somemore lar.
confirm cannot.
ohman):

2008-05-26T18:11:00.002+08:00

before i forgot..

MANCHESTER UNITED ARE CHAMPIONS OF EUROPE AND ENGLAND.

HAHAHAHAHA(:

LOVELY(:

2008-05-26T17:50:00.002+08:00

haha, its been long since i've updated!
hahaha.
so many things happen over the past few days lar.
and its the HOLIDAYS alr!
im over the moon.
hahaha!!

hmm, lets see, last friday, i went to watch movies with shuyi, xueqi and zhiyun!
sadly, zeren and jocelyn dint tag along):
we watched what happens in vegas and made of honour!
what happens in vegas is damn good ok.
omg, its so super funny lar!
we went in late so like we missed the startin few bits.
BUT, we still manage to UNDERSTAND it.
and, it was really hilarious lar!
and, i could hear zhiyun's loud laughter cause, she's beside me.
HAHA.
made of honour was average, but OK lar.
still funny(:
BUT, i was so disappointed that there was no accuracy of death lar!!!!
i really really wanted to watch that lar!))):
HUR):
-
there's so much work to do over the holidays lar.
terms right after it too.
sighh.
but right now, there's no motivation.
been slackin since sch started lar!
haha.
its ok, the all so pro samantha yeo will find the right time, to do the right thing.
aw, so bright.
yeah, right.-.-
-
i think the china earthquake is seriously heartbreaking.
everytime i look at the pictures of it, i cant help but cry.
the moment i thought how the parents are feeling when they realise their children are dead.
): why such things happen.
-
im filled with envy.
and i dunno why.

2008-05-19T11:44:00.002+08:00

伍家辉-虽然我愿意

请让我靠近你轻轻对你说
别让我每个夜为你受折磨
是多么不容易才默默放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
别让我因为你被回忆折磨
而空气凝结了我们的脸孔
我别无选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意

再让我靠近你轻轻对你说
当我说我要你从此好好过
是真的否则我怎么肯放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
赐给我你现在幸福的笑容
别让恨冻结了我们的脸孔
请你做选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意

心还想着你
-
this song's like kinda stuck onto my head now.
haha, suits my mood.
haha.

last week was bad.
freaking hectic, tests and deadlines.
haha, thankfully, holidays coming!(((:
and today's a holiday too(:
life is so enjoyable when i dun have to wake up so early.
HAHA.

went for campfire last sat!
haha(:
i swear the song's damn funny.
haha.
unbelievably, four yrs in np's like over.
and i seriously missed np alot.
sighh.
and of course, cedar.
pouts.

childhood frens came over last night!
haha, and jason's botak cuz he's in bmtc now.
HAHA, i dint dare laugh too loud though..
haha!
had lots of fun!
mahjong, and billiard.
ok,i swear they are a bunch of losers ok!
they take more than an hr to fin a game of billiard-.-
and they alw missed the ball larr!
wahlao, and i had to stone and watch them play:/
imagine my pitiful plight.
haha!

grandma hse later!((:
-
i miss those times.

2008-05-11T14:50:00.002+08:00

and so, a new week is about to begin!

haha, and there's lots of football matches today.

hoho, i swear im gonna watch(:

esp, wigan vs manu(:

HAHA(:

so went back to cedar on friday.

omg, i miss cedar like alot.

so many ppl i missed ok.

but i dint really catch up with them all.

ohman):

got lots of work to do.

gp independent module's due the comin wk.

econs next wk.

haha.

i think im stressed):

OH, and i ripped my uniform on friday!

HAHAHA, it was so funny i swear.

i was playin with my frens, den apparently there was a miscommunication,

and my uni got stuck on the door handle.

and then with a push, my uni got ripped:/

HAHA.

2008-05-08T23:25:00.002+08:00

samantha yeo is very very very tired.
she has yet to fin her gpp..

right now, she wish that somebody can just keep her company.
-
going back to cedar tmr(:
i can get to see alot of ppl(:*beams(:
HEH(:
-
samantha yeo's gonna break down soon.
ohman.

2008-05-05T23:57:00.002+08:00

YAYYE<33

i swear pink ice cream so aint for me.
zeren wants to eat, and she wna take a pic of herself eatin it.
the ice cream in front of me belogs to xq.
strawberry.
but anyw, sch sells pretty nice and cheap ice cream!<33

HAHA, i swear zhiyun's damn hilarious.
HAHA!

1,2,3,4,5!
hahaha!
the hand on top of shuyi's pretty creepy right?
haha!((((:

and samantha's being her old reflective self.
hahaha..

2008-05-05T23:29:00.014+08:00

school's been pretty tiring recently, though it's gettin SLIGHTLY better
not to say i've gone thru econs, phy and chem.
and there's still maths and environment test next wk):
sighh, i haven even start readin my gp package.
im dead):
lots of things happen last wk, so this entry's gonna be pretty long.
so bear with me!(:

wednesday!
SPORTS DAY!
i seriously wonder why ac shouldnt follow cedar and start sch in the morning,
so there's like no sch for us.
hahaha, its pretty hot sitting at the bleachers and just looking at...ppl.. runnin.
haha!
so my class all sat at oldham! infront of the speakers.
zhiyun and me determined to set up a store called K square!
so we can go k tgt(: hahahaha!
so we end up laughin real lots, talk crap.
and zhiyun's mum cook dinner at 330-.-
HAHAH. and we saboed worx!
she called her mum to tell her she's havin dinner with us.
and we just boyfriend all the way.
her mum was so paranoid pls.
HAHAHA.
and my diaphragm became kinda pain cuz laugh too hard.
went JE to eat dinner! KOBAYASHI!
our first outing tgt! 30th may!
sadly, we dint want to take pics anymore so yeah.
but it was really fun(: love them loads<33

thursday!:D
LABOUR DAY!
i went out with duckling!:D
been so long since we catch up(:
haha, so it was nice catchin up with ehr after so long(:
haha, miss her preety badly yo!
all her whinings and stuffs. hahaha!
we went amk hub and watched forbidden kingdom!
it was pretty lame and the cinema's freaking cold.
after that, i did GP!
i read afew pages on environment.
but i swear its damn diff to understand):
haha.

friday!
NAPFA!
im not in cedar anymore, not in np,
no push for me to get a gold):
cant blodily, sit and reach:/
HAHA!
im not going to reveal any of my napfa results.
im too embarrassed.
HAHA!

saturday!
interact!
i went amk to do door to door collections.
ask for old newspapers.
my arms like dying from carryin too much heavy newspapers):
but i endured(:
other than the sun, it ws pretty slack actually(:
and the mart me went to try soda water.
it taste like XYZ disgusting.
HAHA!
i swear im not gonna be curious anymore!

sunday!
dad came back from m'sia from his games(:
haha, i missed him ok!

today!
haha, chem test was tedious, but manageable.
camwhore alot after sch.
and durin pw.
haha.my clique so spas!
omg!
i love them<33
and i went home with sharon today(:
haha,(:
im sick againok):
blocked nose and sore throat):

off to sleep!):
there's pe three times today):

2008-04-29T21:09:00.003+08:00

big bunch of jokers.
HAHAH, i look cross eye, nope.
i WAS cross eye.
HAHA. unglam lar.

HAHA, im out to make you look unglam!

HAHAHA(:

PW(:

2008-04-29T20:49:00.002+08:00

haha, tmris sports day.
it's gonna be til quite late.
im so glad its a hol on thurs(:
but sadly, i still have pw to do!

monday
well, i had to stay back after sch to pia my compre and my aq.
hahaha!
it was crap.
i seriously dint know how to do ok.
ohman.
and you know what, i failed gp essay too:/
embarrassing.
hahaha! i scared i fail gp pls-.-
so we waited for worx in the NL.
den she got so stressed, and she PRETENDED to hit the wall.
but she ended, FALLIN down on her pals and knees ok!
HAHAHA, it was like omg funny.
HAHAHA.
and we saw the train when we were walkin under the walkway.
so i pretended to be lublub and i RAN!
HAHA, it was super funny ok.
i really destress ALOT laugin out loud.

today
so i stayed back for the sci centre briefin thingy.
had to sacrifice ben and jerrys free cone day.
omg, so sad ok.
*chants: there's alw another one next yr.
HAHA, me, lublub were so tempted to pon.
haha.

had two tests today.
econs and physics.
i think i screwed both up though.
haha, i was like damn careless durin phy.
phy was suprisingly kinda ok.
but i got pretty careless and i got the first part of a three parts question wrong.
so yeah. sighh.
econs, dun talk about it.
confirm fail one.
if i pass, i'll be damn happy:/

sch's pretty ok now, except for the tests and tutorials though.
class pretty fun and lame.
perhaps...

i dun even know what am i supposed to do durin sports day:/
i think i'll end up slackin with lublub and zeren!
HAHAHA, oldham hse huh((:

OHOH, before i forgot.
lublub was damn funny today!
she was tryin to be mean to zeren and we plottin to leave when we see her returnin to get our haribo sweets.
so i was like ok ok.
den in the end she turn away,
pointed to herself and went:
'EH EH, why you so mean ah?'
HAHA, was damn it comical lar!
HAHAH.

weather's so hot.
omg.

2008-04-27T14:10:00.002+08:00

worx have to remind me that we have gp to do.
ohman. whats with AQ.
i dun even know how to start!
like omg.
i think gp is a such disgustin subj.
*SCREAMS.
and i alw take damn long to PROCESS the question.
then take damn long to FIND the answer.
and then i still need to PARAPHRASE.
that's it.
you think i'll have the time to do.
no, yayye, that means i'll fail.
ah, whatever.
life's gettin real sucky.
shruggs.

i think my bro's no where like me.
maybe except the part where we both are lamers and jokers.
and the part where we can never get serious and quarrel alot.
his maths is like lousy can.
but his lit and hist is like, damn it pro.
HAH.
total opposites.
perhaps that the reason why i love him so much.
because opposites attract.
HAHAHA.

off to eat pillows and do work!

2008-04-26T23:50:00.001+08:00

currently, the ppl who i go to sch for(:

haha, they are a bunch of funny ppl.

haha, love you guys!<33

the xXx clan!

HAHAHA!

2008-04-26T22:45:00.002+08:00

-you made me, so worried.

I HATE CHELSEA!
ohman):
manu lost): im like pretty sad):
and the moment i come online, everybody all came and tell me manu lost):
i know, i watched.
and there was 2 on the line clearance):
ohman): i was screamin infront of the tv ok!
its alright, lets just win barca at old trafford ok(:
sad):

my head's kinda stuck with the song, better in time,
for dunno what reason.
ahahaha.
anyw, im done with pi(:
gpp due next wk. and then there's gp project.
haha, most tests are comin next wk too.
i think im damn stressed.
sighh): how):

and then, there's you.
i dunno, just kinda worried about you.
and you aint replyin, nt the first time anyw.
haha, like i said, im just a msg or a call away(:
so cheer up ok.

perhaps, i dun matter as much anymore.
sigh, i dunno.
i just want to be updated about your life.
just like the past.

i still owe duckling a letter!
dun worry, its comin ok(:
i'll post it, soon, hopefully by next wk(:
haha(: miss that spas girl so much.
oh, not forgettin her whinin:D
haha!(:

ohman, last wk, somebody just ahd to remind me about bougay ceerleadin 2006.
made me went to look at the vid again, and it brought back several memories.
like seriously.
nostalgic ok.
sighh.
i miss cedar so much):

there's work again tmr):
i seriously need to study for my tests.
where did time go?
where did my motivation go to?
who's my motivation now?
ahwell, i'll just ponder over these in the train next wk.
and get emo all over again.
all laugh ppl.
samantha has gone crazy.

-hopefully, it'll make you alright again.

2008-04-24T21:28:00.002+08:00

-on the verge of giving up.

PI PI PI!
im so sick of it!!!!
RAH RAH.
this is my fifth time doing it):
tmr's the deadline alr.
and its for A's.
im so dead.

i shouldnt blog anymore, distraction.
besides, i'll end up ramblin about how sucky my life is.
hectic schedules, deadlines, project work, friends.
and the most important thing, time.
i really need time now.):
sighh.

pe on tues was gym, find out our max strength.
now aching all over):
wed was 2.4. got kinda big surprised.
cuz the longest dist i ran at a shot was 1.2 and i died alr.
AHAHA. imagine my feelings:/
and sharon was runnin too!
so we ended up runnin tgt and motivating each other.
our timin was similar(:
HEH, though it sucks.
but i dun care alr.
its over!!!!!!!!(((((((:

there's pe tmr. five items should be comin up..
HMM.

i met CHIA YUN MIN in the train today!
HAPPY!
my kuku darling, whom i haven been keepin in touch.
reminds me of pae.
plus xy dint go sch today, so it was sch with ym!
nostalgic.
<33

tests are all comin up, most next wk.
i need motivation.
c'mon sam, you can do it, you can.
ah, i think sound delusional:/
i think im going crazy:/

i tried, not to bother. but i failed.

2008-04-21T19:20:00.002+08:00

-they return, unreplied.

hmm, im back, for pw,as usual):

im currently addicted to the harribo sweet.

cuz sch got sell, and it keeps me awake during lessons(:

heh.

we camwhore today again during pw!

pw's damn fun in sch, not the independent work shit.

oh, and my fren told me this:

:how do you get rid of your appendics?

and we went surgery, dig out nonsense

the reply was: you tear it off cuz its appendix:/

*rolls eye and die!

and i thought i was the lamest in class alr!

and and, my chem tcher emailed my mum to tell her i never do work:/

HAH, gave me such a big shock cuz i dint know it happen mah,

and he announce to the whole class.

omg ok, so throw face.

HAHA.

my pe ordeal starts tmr):

lets just hope it'll be no runs but throws again.

javelin was damn slack last fri.

haha.

cant go sch late tmr): sighh.

congrats to darling!

her ccs got into finals yo!

HAHA, jiayou jiayou(:

though that means another 2plus wks of going home without you.

miss you so luhhh):

anyway, all the best!

kinda random, but sharon lim, i miss you so much luh.

i miss the tuesdays tuitions with you, anthony, sophia and the rest.

sighh.

i should really catch up with you one day.

its like we are all so busy and all.):

RAH

2008-04-20T21:45:00.001+08:00

oh manu draw!):

im so sad ok):

nvm, we'll win at stamford bridge next wk!

HEHHEH.

all the best at nou camp!(:

2008-04-20T21:34:00.007+08:00

hell yeah, i know i've lost you for good

those memories, i haven forgotten

where we talk and joked around like nothing else matters

that place's gone now anyway, and perhaps, so are you

i lament over my loss, my heart aches, but perhaps, you'll never know

school's been pretty rush lately,

with pw, tutorials and all.

and there's pe 3 times next wk!

no joke ok):

i've dropped gsc, figure out i couldnt cope anyway, so yeah.

tests coming up..

im dead lar, since im always asleep during tutorials:/

i miss sharon and the tuitions we use to have every tues.

sighh.

i miss everything i had/have last yr.

ahwells, i just fin pi draft3.

and there's still gpp due next wk.

i think im going bonkerly stressed D:

aries party is alr due a wk!

and i swear i had lots of fun.

HOHO.

i miss you guys so much ok

it'll always remain a part of me, forever<33

congrats to grace kock!

vice chairperson leh.

haha, jiayou and all the best for whatever's ahead yeah!

<33

those spas things you always say

2008-04-11T23:02:00.002+08:00

had pe today.
played football.
been so long sice i've played.
kinda enjoyed actually.
HEH.
and guess what, i shrank by 2cm and slimmed down bby 5kg!
hahahaha!
despite my unhumanly appetite, who eats at every opportunity.
HAHA, sth's wrong with the weighin machine i bet!
hahaha!

i think im so gonna die for chem spa.
its so not like cedar one.
instructions are like so unclear.
have to infer here and there.
haha, ahwell, i'll cope with it lar.

pw's killin me.
its like the workload's horrifyin.
gpp's due on wk7.
pi's due on wk6.
i only hand up my first draft, and i have yet to meet up with my grp.
scream! whines! bangs head!
i think im goin bonkers pls. urghh.

sch's gettin so long and weary.
no much big highlights, except for internal class jokes.
ahwells.

2008-04-02T22:41:00.002+08:00

BTMF TRIP TO PULAU TEKONG!
hahaha, saw so many cedarians there.
it was pretty hot day and i couldnt stand wlakin around.
like yeah.
lectures were kinda boring, i almost slept:/
but i ended up gossipin with marliana.
hehheh.
it's like meant for the guys!(usually)
i see no reason for me to go.
maybe except for the army food.
its damn nice ok.
hahah! they are so pampered there!
anyway, so we just walked around,
and i got bored and moodswing.
urghh.

2008-03-29T22:29:00.003+08:00

FUN-O-RAMA XIX!
i had so much fun today i swear!
though my food and games stall sucks.
but still. yeah
my game is so creative: put shavin cream on the balloon and then start shavin it within a limited time!
and you know what, balloons do burst.
so i end up havin shavin cream all over me.

joatham with shavin cream:/

hmm, went to the doll's hse for the haunted hse.
sth funny, cuz when we entered this room with a 'doll', she started walkin towards us.
we freaked out and moved, and she had us cornered.
so errm, i think we pushed backwards and fell onto a 'ghost', who was behind me.
ermm, the 'doll' infront was more scary, hence i ignored despite knowin there wasnt supposed to be anybody behind me.
so when we leavin that particular rm, i turned back, and she screamed with a pissed face.
and i jumped and ran out:/ haha.
it was quite a nice experience though.
and yeah, ac's pretty fun when everybody's in the mood(:

oh, went home pretty tired.
lug home 200 buns, and soya bean and alot alot alot of other stuffs.
hahaha, and my rice cooker's still with mrtan.
no need to cook alr:/

2008-03-25T20:19:00.002+08:00

it's been so long since i've update. i'll start with.. last sat?

22nd mar
went for the campcraft competition in the mornin!
my fault, cuz we took the wrong bus and ended up at bukit batok:/
HAHA, oops, sorry duckling!
anyw, yeah, though the wait in between is kinda long and bores me.
i manage to catch up with a few ppl!
like baoyi, though i know im gonna see her later.. but still.
claire, sqdmates and alot alot of others.
gosh, kinda like miss my sec sch life, esp cedar, cedar np, class.
SIGHH):
so after that, had lunch, and i went to work!
and guess what,it rained.
my bbq plans were almost shattered!):
but luckily dady came to the rescue and borrowed a portable pit!:D
so we(my pri sch frens) all came over to my hse!
and i refuse to let go of the umbrella, cuz it was rainin. OOPS.
i hug it and dint share it, gay huh, but who cares.
so yupps, eat bbq, play, catch up.
i so regretted goin ac pls.
like alm all of my pri sch frens went aj cannnnnnnn!
if i go there it'll be a joy since i dun need to make new frens again:/
SIGHH):
so they left at about 11plus bah.
cleared, bathe, and sleep at about 12plus?

23rd mar
highlight of the day?
MANUTD AGAINST L'POOL:D
and who do you think i'll support?
mau utd of course, ronaldo lehh(:
3-0(:
wes brown, c.ronaldo and nani scored(:
lovely night.
though i was hopin for a draw bet arsenal and chelsea.
but the main thing is manu won.
HOHO. flaunts*

24th mar
sch as usual.
jocelyn were insultin manu okkkkkkkkkkkkk!
make me so sadddddddd):
and she curse ronaldo to break his leg.
SHE's dead if it really happen.
pw sucks pls):
and i was waitin for my fries from this class.
i waited for 10 mins to realise that the girl dint on the deep fryer switch!
like wth?! it was super funny ok!
hahaha, my fries turn soggy alil.
and we sneak it up to pw class.
tasty yo! and it was salt-free(:
den it was home!(:

today(:
boring sucky thing
was almost late
had to run ok. since sch starts at 8.10 and it was hard to catch the timin:/
haha.
4hrs of intensive lecture nonstop, no break.
sucky larrr!
and there's pe tmr!):
i dun wan to run):
another busy day again.
SIGHH.
and, im so jealous xueyuan, anger and eileen get to go to cedar to sell tickets!
I WAN TAG ALONG one also ok.
stupid, why aint i in the same class.
dammit.

off to do alil of pw.
haha, praise me ppl(:

2008-03-12T13:47:00.002+08:00

so fast, the first term has already past.
looking back, i realised i have yet to do anythign fruitful yet.
HAH. slack lar.
now cant get back into the muggin mood:/
its the march hols now,
bro went to camp,
so im left alone at home.
suddenly become so unusually quiet:/
ahwells, i'll only see him on sun.
he's goin pulau ubin with dad and mum but im not.
hahaha.

i fell last fri, thanks to xueyuan lar.
morning time, i abit blur lar,
den perhaps she shove accidentally.
den i fell on the pavement while walkin to sch.
knee was bleedin painfully,
finger also-.-
then right, i forgotten my knee was injured,
i slam the entire knee on monday!
i was tryin to squeeze to make space between furnitures-.-
den it bled, i dint change the bandage thingy(i did it on myself ok:D)
so the next day, the gauze thingy got stuck on my dried up skin:/
had to peel the entire thing away ok:(
hurts like mad:(

im almost done with mathematical induction.
jc maths. urgh.
for once, im being killed just by doin maths.
ahwell, i hate AP,GP, thats my worst topic.
screams!
im left with gp notes on edu.
blardy chim. i barely understand!:(

no shows, no games,
im going bored:(

i miss my brother:(

2008-03-06T18:06:00.002+08:00

i've change class again!
HOHO. to 1SB5.
poor gerald will only have one girl left.
HAH.
shant complain anymore, since well, im no longer there...
haha.
today was a damn sian day.
only had maths lecture for like 15mins?
there were some difficulties with the projector.
HAH.
the rest of the day was junst accompanyin my darlings at the oldham wing.
(cheer up alright, dear? im sure it'll be fine! love you!)
1hr20mins of personality indicator.
apparently im sth like a mother! my weakness is that im too self-sacrifice.
HAHA.

tmr will be another slack day. hoho:D

2008-03-03T20:13:00.004+08:00

oh and before i forgot..
haha, i said i'll upload.
kill me luh:D HOHO.

2008-03-03T19:31:00.002+08:00

SATURDAY.
went for the campcraft comp last sat.
all thanks to my duckling who insist on goin:/
i wanted to stay home sleep!
HAHA, paiseh lar.
so she overslept, make me wait for halfanhr.
reach cck, and i forgot my way.
so we followed the crowd.
the pitch sucks due to the rain.
haha, in the end the comp was postponed.
thank god.
went ps to eat.
duckling was so tired that she stone throughout.
so we went home straight after lunch.

so manu won 3-0 comfortably away to fulham.
while arsenal BARELY grasp a pt with a last kick from bendtner.
heng sai, if not mau leaders le:/
anyway, there's still champions league to catch up with.
HOHO.

SUNDAY.
was my grandma's birthday ystd.
went out to eat, the food was average though.
saw yonggeng at tiong bahru plaza.
was goin to buy a cake.
though it looks the nicest, i think the taste sucks.
so eggy lar!:(
and there was my shuaige!
hahaha.
went home afterwards and sleep.

MONDAY.
i actually forgot my wallet this morning.
had to borrow ten bucks from ym.
almost late.
chiong to sch, and i had to find out my new class.
1SB8, apparently with only 3 girls.
includin me. all laugh pls.
anyway, i was saboed to be assistant class rep.
though the guys were friendly, but still, 3 girls is very.very.very. depressin.
gerald's in my class too!:D
we both regretted changin combi:(
haha.
went home after some personality test, and sleep again!
im utterly tired luh. wake up so early and all.
SIGH.

somebody told me this joke during cc comp.
'the chicken cross the road to get the newspaper, that's the end of the joke, do you get it?'
the person's scrunched up face and say'no'
'of course, the chicken got it'.
OMG. i almost fell.

ohyes, i was jealous. haha.

2008-02-20T21:15:00.003+08:00

haha, so im staying at ac!!
HOHO, and anger's there too(:
HEH.

still, i get to go sch with ym, the plus point(:
HEH, my dear shark!
endure your two yrs lar,it'll be over soon(:
frankly, eng lit's definitely not enjoyable.
HAHA.

liverpool 2-0 inter milan
olympiacos 0-0 chelsea

haha, manu and arsenal kickin off at 3.30 later in the mornin.
cross fingers, manu win ok.
haha, ronaldo is love. serious.

o2 starting tmr! back to og.
haha, i'll really miss 1SA8 alot?
sighh, i so dun wan to split up,
plus the possibility we might not be in the same class again?
i dunno, i'll be damn sad!):
no more crap, no more nonsense.
importantly, no more glider, no more doggy, no more bitchin
and siew mai, margarine.
SIGHH.

with my period and o2 tmr.
my opp cost? o2.
chicken nugget.

2008-02-18T21:00:00.001+08:00

hello, i decided to revive(again) this thing.
HAHA. though seriously, i think i should change my add.
obviously, to some ronaldo one.
HOHO. he's like damn cute, im in love:D

im in acjc now. for pae.
honestly, i really dunno where i'll be going for jae.
so yeah, hopefully yeah...
anyway, posting's gonna be out tmr at 8am.
im kinda anxious, nervous, and scared
it wouldnt be a surprise if i cant sleep tonight:/

sch was horrible today.
like pe was like -.-''?
jumps, shuttle run, at least i jog one rnd lesser.
oh, and i PON chi!
HAHA, i dun have to take it anyway,
its just to pei fer, jo and the rest.

seriously, if im gonna stay at ac,
i'll miss 1SA8 alot..
though we dint really spend much time tgt...
but still, all the laughter.. haha.
ohyeah, and all the fun-o-rama plannin!
so crap lar.

went to walk arnd orchard today,
and i saw junyi and sarah.
been ages since i've seen junyi luh!
hmm, anyway, it was like damn slack today.
i've the intention to pon tmr too..
but, i've decided against!
HAH, so praise me ppl(:

c.ronaldo's been my love lately.
not lately, since 2004. HAHA
my heart throb, he's damn cute!
top scorer in epl with 19 goals(:
oh, and manu thrash arsenal 4-0 in fa cup.
HEH.

let's see where i'll end up alright.
11more hrs of uncertainty?
ohyayye, i'll go count down:/

2007-09-21T16:50:00.000+08:00

alone in a corner,
as the teardrops fell.

and before you say anything else,
maybe you could check why am i not doing it.
sometimes being too sensitive isnt sth good.
next time, i shouldnt care anythign about how you feel.

get lost.

2007-09-21T16:41:00.000+08:00

was i wrong?
i insist, i dint do anything against my conscience.
stop interfering into MY privacy.
im a SEC4 student already.
there are certain things you got to respect.

so what, you mean doing things YOUR way,
regardless of my feelings,
will make you happy,
will make you be proud of me as your daughter?
HAHA. right.
let me retun the sarcasm.
thank you for being my mother.

you'll never understand me.
it's high time you guys give way.

2007-08-10T12:32:00.000+08:00

like a stone lifted from my shoulder,
the relieve of burden.

it just doesnt feel the same no more.
i've learnt not to care
to believe in it too much,
the pain strikes back, twice as hard.

im drownin, within myself.
give me one more chance,
i'll change my life.

there are too many regrets,
too many sorrows.

anyway, samanthayeo has just pierce her ears on 4th august.
mark this date ppl,
she wasnt in the right sense of mind when she agreed.
HAHAHA.

i want my one pair of COMPLETE EARS.
):

2007-07-28T20:20:00.000+08:00

it's the weekend again.
im piled with tons of ws.
i hate doing work lar.
all the emaths and amaths paper,
the numbers' makin me blind luh):
waiting you for you anxiously.but you never appear.
i just completed my crescent girls and acs(i) paper.
there's still, scgs, chij, and err. bio.
HAHA.
bio sucks anyway.
as long as i pass, im satisfied(:
you gave my hope, destiny, and my fate. its just all a dream.
im at my friend's hse now.
i ate baked rice until im extremely bloated.
GRAH.
stomach felt as if its bursting:/
supressing my emotions, controlling my tears.
this week been an emo one.
thanks duckling for being there(:
you're a great fren luh.
HEH.
i should accept the fact that you'll never come back, never again.
forever doesnt exist.
someone just prove me wrong.
haha, thankyou for waking me up.
i've been asleep in this fantasy for too long.

i've lost you for good.

2007-07-26T21:29:00.000+08:00

i decided to revive this thing.
HAHA.
:/

i've been havin headaches recently.
it's killing me luh):
i could see that doubt hidden beneath those eyes.
schwork's stressing,
worksheets after worksheets.
esp maths. AND bio.
im not complainin about maths.
but BIO? die luh.
so whatever you said were merely words of replies.
i go to tmp for chi lessons now):
i cant do work secretly.
cant sleep):
SIGH.
im such a fool to believe you all this while.
i miss my split second!
headaches prevent me from watching.
OH, the new show- shades of truth, is nice.
I MUST WATCH(:
you lied, you broke your promise.
i have endless of.. UNDONE homework.
AHH.
i just want to take leave for one day,
and sleep all i want.
my head's been hurting since dunno how many wks ago):
i hate reality):
maybe i dun care anymore.

2007-05-23T15:30:00.000+08:00

i swear one day i'll free myself of everything.
its pointless to stay on anyway.

2007-05-14T22:59:00.000+08:00

i need somebody to lean on,
a shoulder for me to cry on.
wantin to cry, but pretendin to be strong.
being disappointed and all.
pretending it doesnt care is tough.
especially when deep down,
i know how much it matters to me.
-
hao xiang fang xia wo jian qiang de yi mian,
rang wo jin qing de shu jie wo de xin qing.
tu ran jian,
wo gan dao hao gu du, hao wu zhu.
-
zai wo shi jie de leng mo, you you shui cai hui li jie ne?
-
how much i need you know,
to be there for me to lie on.
to be there to comfort me.
to let me know, that i aint alone at all.
-
ye xu, wo mei ni xiang xiang zhong na me jian qiang le.
xin lin de cui ruo, de shang tong,
shui lai pu qiu ne?
-
ni zhi dao ma, wo xiang zai shi duo me de xiang ni.
deng dai ming tian, wo you neng jian dao ni le.

2007-05-05T14:41:00.000+08:00

i really do miss you.
one more week before i see you again.
such a pain not to be able to talk to you.
sighh.
i love you, alright.
rmb that(:

2007-04-16T21:41:00.000+08:00

im crying inside but nobody knows.
being blamed for everything.
haha.
it should have been a habit by now.
but it still hurts.
-
as i sat at the breakwater.
my memories replayed what happen on friday where we spent time at the beach.
what we did, what we said, what we promised.
listenin to some english song that starts with a all so familiar word.
how much i missed the past.
browsing through my previous msges,
readin it..
my tears involuntarily formed.
the promises made..
the words you said.
all just fade away.
-
everybody's tellin me to let you go.
they all say,
its my fault for your sadness.
cheer up.

2007-04-13T23:58:00.000+08:00

i know im gonna break down soon.
everything change so fast in a flash.
and now, you're gone.
-
those memories, i'll never forget.
kovan, playground, smses, in your room, in the bus, in the bus stop, over the hols.
part of me.
hard to leave.

2007-04-13T21:43:00.000+08:00

~~the last goodbye, you'll never say.~~
-
my nightmare has fallen,
my dreams are broken.
you left me standing alone,
to fight my remaining shreds of humanity.
-
i guess this is it.
never expected it bah.
i should have be mentally prepared,
despite your constant promises.
but again,
i shouldnt have be selfish,
wanting you to hold on despite everything.
especially what MY parents have done.
somebody just make me realise that,
what you've been through has been harder than mine.
guess i was too insensitive?
but i wasnt exactly having a good time either.
banging my head, cutting myself, suicidal thoughts.
i thought you could understand that.
at least you have your bunch of comforting and understanding friends,
who are still there for you.
make you laugh in a way i've never done before.
i could sense that happiness in you.
like you've finally put down a burden or sth.
like i've said,
maybe you dint realise.
but somehow, i really felt your friends were more impt than me.
guess somehow i wasnt wrong...
-
everyday, you assure me so much.
and today, you just gave up.
that great disappointment,
that great trust in your words and promises.
this failure to pick myself up.
am i fool then?
-
where are the three words i longed to hear?
where is the warm embrace i longed for everyday?
where is the assuring warm perfect palm, which i longed to hold?
all gone, in a single msg.
-
those promises over the phone calls?
those words in your letters?
that particular pg behind my foolscap.
no longer does it make me smile.
it makes me, cry and long for you.
-
as i type, my tears fell onto the keyboard.
what a weakling.
and now, it hurts so much to hide my love for you.
its agony to not to hold you.
-
you said next yr.
thats 8mths till then.
i can wait.
but, can you? will you?
-
after every lecture, every scolding, every parting.
i had your word as my promise.
but somehow, that seem to have faded away from my reach.
-
your friends succeeded in making you happy.
so many in exchange for 1.
quite a good deal huh?
if you really love me,
that one should be a infinite.
now, this make me sound kinda pathetic and useless.
maybe this was the case since the beginning.
-
you ask me before,
if you leave me one day, will i still be here.
my answer still remains, yes.
-
but i also said before,
i'll let go when you ask me to.
is this, a hint?
-
let my tears drown my sorrows.
i no longer have anything to look forward to now.
you took away, my last bit of life.
my heart, left along with you.
-
hope you are alright.
you'll be fine with your friends anyway.
they always manage to comfort you better than me.
you'll never regret this choice bah.
afterall, the only disappointment is gonna be me.
you left the rest happy and proud.
not a bad deal.
thousand apples for 1buck.
HAH.
):
-
so now, im like the bad person.
makin your fren upset even though she initiated it huh?
okay fine.
her reason is all because of me also.
haha.
yar yar.
go on.
it has always been my fault anyway.
one more doesnt kill.
-
FYI, stop labelling me as if i dun care,
im cryin inside, struggling to hold on.
i cried in school, so hard, so many times,
but you dint see.
i know its MY parents fault.
but what can i do, they are still afterall my parents.
i dun like it, so what?
i tolerate and tolerate, to the extent i bang my head.
do you know?
no you dont.
im not saying you cant dislike her,
but at least have respect.
i dun like what she do but so what? she's still my mother.
im tolerating every criticisms.
i know what your fren is facing.
i know its my fault, my mother's fault, nothing to do with her.
so you can stop remindin me already.
thank.you.very.much.
-
let me be your best friend.
thats the only way, i can still be by your side.

2007-04-07T23:44:00.000+08:00

you make me understand the meanin of my life.
you gave me what others never have given me.
you understand me like no one else.
seeing you so far away,
the pain that follows.
no, stay behind.
i want you, by my side.
-
bu yao zou,
ting xia jiao bu,
hui dao wo de huai bao,
rang wo jin jin bao zhe.
ni de wen nuan,
rang wo gan dao, shi fen xin fu.
bu yao zou, hao mah?
yao ji zhu, wo men de chen nuo.
wo ai ni.

2007-04-07T18:37:00.000+08:00

i'll never let go, trust me.
but this distance,
this pain of missing somebody,
my heart hurts. and hurts.
im cryin softly.
-
im sorry, that's all i can say.

2007-03-24T15:47:00.000+08:00

im tired.
numb my pain,
its getting to hard to bear.

2007-03-23T22:40:00.000+08:00

i dunno what to do anymore.
the torment,
the agony.

its all my fault.
im sorry.

life is getting meaningless.

mayb one day, i shall run away from home.

HAH.

2007-03-19T16:05:00.000+08:00

my head's hurting,
my heart's aching.
-
i dunno what i want.
-
im crying inside,
does anyone knows my pain?
im wavering, shaking.
im just that blardy coward.
one big useless fool.
-
i hate myself.

2007-03-17T19:11:00.000+08:00

i need you.
it hurts so much to see you leave.
i just want to know if i've made an impact in your life.
i just want to know, if you still love me.
i just want to know, if you'll wait for me.
i just want you to know, i still love you.

2007-03-16T21:32:00.000+08:00

today.
you sat beside me,
by the beach, in the car,
with your hands tightly in mine.
the feeling i couldnt forget.
i dint want you to leave me.
i wanted that moment to last.
i gripped your hand,
wanting to hold you back.
'i hafta clench my fist in order not to reach out for you. its agony'
it hurts to hold back that urge,
that urge of wanting to give you a goodbye kiss, a goodbye hug.
it hurts even more to see you leave from my sight.
i dun want you gone.
today.
we stare out at the dark blue sea, under that shining sun.
we made a promise, never to leave
storing our love in a glass bottle and throw it out.
our endless love, will never die.
today.
we sat by the beach.
holding each other's hand.
enjoying each other's company.
teasing each other.
lying on each other's shoulders,
that blissful feeling,
is like heaven.
-
the five hrs spent together.
pass by in a flash.
never did i expect it to end so fast.
yet, all the happenings, all the memories,
still freshly intact in my mind.
i can only rmb,
the moments we shared by the beach,
we screamed and shout at the bbcourt and the double bike,
the quiet moments in the car.
my heart melt at the instant touch.
my coldness disssolve with your warmth.
-
today.
you just reconfirm my love for you.
darling. i love you.
-
~~but who should i let down?~~

2007-03-13T23:33:00.001+08:00

let me sleep and dream.
let me wonder through my fantasies.
i dun want to wake up.
because im afraid.
that you'll be gone from me one day.
[editted]

2007-03-12T15:06:00.000+08:00

im sorry, i've been too paranoid.
i just couldnt understand.
it's my fault.

~~i thought you understand me.~~

2007-03-11T13:34:00.000+08:00

i was waiting anxiously,
for you to finish,
to receive a msg from you,
to tell you how much i missed you.
waiting like a big fool,
but it never came.
/
by now, i've realise the unimportance of my existence.
/
my purpose in life,
still remains a big question mark.

2007-03-09T23:27:00.000+08:00

smehow, im sorry for causing you in this mess.
jiayou dear.
endure.
it'll be fine, i hope.
loves.

2007-03-05T22:24:00.000+08:00

it doesnt pay to be nice.
maybe, i should have taken my advice long time ago,
and just shut up.
afterall my existence is no longer important.
i feel like giving up.
seriously.

recently, i dunno why,
but there's this super huge empty feeling right in my heart.
its like, nothing else can feel that hole.
except, YOU, of course.
you complete me, like i said.
the feeling of missing a loved one is super strong.
i dunno why.
but sth the thought get so often,
its tough not to imagine.
im just one useless coward.
making promises but unable to keep all of them.
maybe i really should learn not to keep saying such stufs.
sighh.

love you, dearest.

2007-03-01T23:18:00.000+08:00

i shall protect you from now on,
i wont let anything happen to you.
because, i love you.

2007-02-28T23:33:00.000+08:00

my kuku's in the bath):
.
was suan like shit to day in school lar.
wonder why im always the one gettin bullied :/
haha.
filzah said my face went red...
HMM.

2007-02-28T11:31:00.000+08:00

quoted by ... :)

darling, as you find yourself stuck in a large chamber,
with bloody red walls and ceilings, dripping blood,
pumping hard,
you'd know you're locked in my heart,
FOREVER.

jessica shen, i just love you luh.

2007-02-15T22:21:00.000+08:00

all i wanted is some care and concern,
some love and attention,
is that too much to ask for?
some freedom, too.
/
life's a horrible mess now.
its so tiring.
i need my escape.
my comfort.
my babygirl.
i miss her):
/
you've changed.
~~or am i thinkin too much ?~~
/
a leopard never change its spots.
how true.
/
be strong.
im here.

2007-02-07T22:43:00.000+08:00

the fresh rush of love,
that outburst of emotions..
.
i wanted to just cry myself out,
im touched.
i melted, from that msg.
my heart felt a rush of warmth.
i dissolve, right at the instant.
.
i just love you so much, baby.
i really do.

2007-02-06T09:49:00.002+08:00

kuku(:
/
i shall flatter you.
all the way, til you ask me to stop.
you know how impt you are to me.
iloveyou, with my everything.
/
kisses.

2007-02-01T17:47:00.000+08:00

im so afraid.
i dunno why,
but im just scared.

it'll last, i want it to.

2007-01-29T22:19:00.000+08:00

i can stand it no longer.

he doesnt show me the respect.yet he gets away without any scoldings.
all i merely did was just to talk back because i was irritated.
i dint want to help him.
after whatever he had done to me on saturday.
you agree it was his fault.
yet you purposely make me guilty by sayin that we quarrellin, throw your face.
LIKE, COME ON.
he attitude me, disrrespectful towards me, INFRONT OF MY FRIENDS.
i had to swallow my pride, and tolerate everything.
it was a great feat, considerin i dint flare my temper back.
i was super pissed.
i refused to acknowledge my brother.
you tried to psycho me.
say, whatever happen is the past and BLAH.
i had to uhhuh, okok, to escape the naggings.
but how do you expect me to forgive and forget something so eventful, so hurtful, in just a day?
even if you were in my shoes,
do YOU think you can just forgive adn forget in just a day,
without scoldin back, without givin the cold shoulder?
NO, YOU CANT.
we are not angels.
worse, he dint apologise.
am i supposed to brainwash myself?
since when has he ever say a thankyou and sorry, SINCERELY, TRUTHLY, right from the bottom of his heart?
without any promptin?
NO, NOT A SINGLE TIME.
and all you commented was, boys mature slower.
is my mistake far much greater than him?
did i throw your face much more than he did?
no, i dun think so.
if my slight rudeness was able to aggravate such temper,
what about his?
doesnt that mean im like stompin with rage?
what's more im just a kid.
and yet, all you did was, okay i'll talk to him about it.
and you scold me like shit in the car.
where's the link between this and stayin back in school?
where's the link between this and havin influence by friends who dun get along with their siblings?
do you have to restrict me to the extent of checkin my school activities?
am i still a primary school kid to you?
i have friends' whose parents pamper them, say sorry to them after each quarrel.
but me?
whether or not im at fault, im always the one sayin sorry.
you were praisin me about how much i gave in to him in the morning,
you were praisin me about how strong character i was, BLAH.
and NOW, you're tellin me, im not a single bit sincere and kind.
you scolded me a liar, because you think i entertain your naggings.
but dont you think,
i need time to calm down.
i need time to forget.
but now, im labelled a liar.
my fault for being nice and accompanyin you to the specs shop.
to help you.
but you dint thank me. you SCOLDED me.
you dun need my help, why do YOU ask me to follow ANYWAY?
you can choose sth you like be it it suits you OR not.
my existence there was just an extra.
he can get away with everything.
im just that unlucky girl, to step on your tail and endure all this shit.
and den i have to be sorry and apologised.
understand me, will you?

life no longer hold as much meanin as it did before.
no matter how much effort i put in, nobody sees it.
~~i hate myself.~~

2007-01-28T02:04:00.000+08:00

who is he to spoil my day?
i hate him.
there's so many unvented frustrations within me.
i want to scream, i want an escape.
im not that young innocent kid anymore.
im runnin away,
im such a coward.
i cant stand giving way already.
its always me, and me, and me.
i hate him.
i really do.

2007-01-26T21:53:00.000+08:00

like what you've said,
maybe im just a useless little fool.
my living isnt of any use anyway.
in case you dunno, im insulted.
much more hurt than you think.
it isnt just the surface to look at.
life's more than that.
oh, dammit.
why is it, that nobody ever understands me?
why is it, that nobody ever realise, me?
i'll shut myself from now onwards,
shielded from this poison.
in any case, i'll never do well,
no matter how hard i try.
if you dun like the way i live my life,
den get lost.
im pretty happy right now, thankyou.
i dun need anymore insults.
ahh, fcuk off.

it sucks today.
i swear.

where are you?):
i'll hold on to that feeling,
that when i hold your hand.
i'll rmb it in my heart,
for thats the place you live.
i miss):

2007-01-21T14:04:00.000+08:00

oh, and jiayou for the cny thing!(:

2007-01-21T13:44:00.000+08:00

im sorry.

im bored,
nothing is nice on a weekend.
my sense of comfort is like far away.
sighh.
i miss.):

drills session tmr.
jiayou!(:

2007-01-13T22:23:00.000+08:00

the last thing you should do,
is to keep it away from us.
-
went taka today.
bored like mad.
when i actually saw sth that i like,
my mum just had to say, its so guy,
and she refuse to buy it anymore.
I SAD.
had a lecture from them til 2 last night.
woke up quite early,
head's hurtin me.
why is it that, what they say is so true?
just that i refuse to believe it/

you know what,
i really miss you.
im burnin with desire for your touch.
gosh, the sorrow of missin somebody.):

2007-01-12T22:08:00.000+08:00

oh come on, cheer up.
life's not only about all this,
there are still many other stuffs, that you can be happy for,
that you can live for.
disappointments arent just there to let you cry, to let you be emo.
its there, so that you can improve,
so that you can set your goals further,
push yourself,
prove to others that you can do it, you MUST do it.
who's born, in such a way who likes to feel sad all the time?
HUH?
smile, stay strong.
no matter what, we DUN cry.
take it our stride,
and forget about it.
keep no hard feelings inside.
look at the bright side, THAT can make you feel better.
or so, i hope.
let things remain just the way it is, alright?
why make things difficult for everybody/?

2007-01-10T22:22:00.000+08:00

OOPS(:
hahaha,
darling, i won!
damn happy.
i know, me too.

no more doubts.
no more nothing, alright?
we'll stay this way, always.

2007-01-06T23:59:00.000+08:00

i watched death note today!
with my cousins and stuff.
they are being spas and tryin to act as L.
the way he ans the call, the way he sit.
SO FUNNY, and cute lar luh?
well, the more i see LIGHT, the more i think he's cute.
HEH.
i think the show's really cool lor.
the two shinigami is so cute, and funny.
hahaha.
the show made my eyes tired though.
its been long since iw atch a movie
not really use to it..

darling, darling!

well, went to xinmin sec for bro's campfire.
saw all my old friends!!
happy ok.
but the campfire's boring...
junyi! let's meet up soon yeah?
been long since we met up!
jiayou for your debate(: